January 3rd - Geez I've been craving writing on this blog thing for hours :L It's ADDICTIVE!

Jan 3rd

Okay, so it's only 10 past 5 but I was bored of geography homework/coursework (Can you believe it? My geoggers teacher, Mr Jackson, set us an exam to do for homework over Christmas (CHRISTMAS!!) and to go over our coursework... that man is such a twat juggler -.-) But yeah... I did like the first question and was like "Ah fuck it, I can't be assed man!"
And then my mum was like screaming at me for 20 minutes claiming that I use my house as a hotel or something and that I need to show more of an interest in the family?

WTF?!

Ugh I can't stand that woman! She's such an arse!! Crap tumbles out of her mouth, she's just shouting at me so she can have something to do, I mean she doesn't do it to my brother or my dad, so why me? Ugh I hate.
Other than that, I feel super weird :S I got up at like 2.30 and within an hour and a half it was starting to get dark, my body clock is feeling dizzy, I can tell you. I was sat in my room with Jeff Buckley playing lol and my head was kinda like "What, dude it's like night time and I only got up like - wha-?" and it's hurting :S
Also, this guy that I had a crush on like aggggesss ago has recently starting talking to me again and it's weird because we didn't say two words to each other for like half a year and now suddenly... I dunno man it's weird. And I dunno if I still like him soooo :/ ultimate mehhhhh.
And yesterday, I had a go at like my best friend, Simon, on IM... and now he's in a piss with me even though I did say sorry (AND MEANT IT) like a billion times after but hey he's not having any of it. Dammit, I've already screwed someone close to me over and it's only day three :( I am a bad person :( Hmmmm, the knives are back... :/
Why can I not make anything work out for myself? Love = non existant, I swear I repulse men or something, they all reject me. School work = dying... Year 7 I was SOO keen to learn I was like a true beaner and just did everything on time and fricking cared! 5 years on I have given up completely even though I hav like 15 hundred exams at the end of the year, I just can't be bothered. I don't have the patience or the self motivation anymore and get stressed out SO much, so then say "fuck it, I don't want to" when I haven't even tried... which is so stupid but meurgh I just can't be arseeeeddddddd. Friendship = well as previously read, the whole simon thing... bad times man. I might just go and hug him for an hour on monday... And then with my girls, there are like 12 of us or something and I adore them all they're such babes! But some of them are goin to college at the end of the year and I dunno, just don't seem as close to the rest of us anymore... I try to talk to them but find I actually can't :'( And with my other friends, they're always like doing stuff together and it's either I can't make it or somehow end up not being involved and it bugs me man because I feel like I'm drifting away from them and I don't want that to happen :( ARGHHHHH! Family = SUCKS! That's all there is to it... I don't like spending time with them. That's it, the whole story. Bad huh? ITunes = is being gay! I was uploading a CD, or trying to at least and it wouldn't do it so I went onto my computer and tried to it manually and it still didn't work when I tried to drag them in. Which was gay. And now my cursor has a huge opaque block next to it saying 27 songs mp3 AND IT WON'T GO AWAY!!

AND I have writers block. I really wanna write a story about a group of confidence men and a low key actress that they hire for some really big schme they've got going. Problem is I can't think of the big scheme. I was watching Ocean's 13 and I really liked the idea of using the casino and gambling and stuff. But eugh I just can't think, so if any of you guys have any little 'ooh that could work''s them comment this post and I will take it all on board and try and do it, and shove it on the new blog I am going to create of all my story typey things :D Cheers guys.

Laterss xx