Ermmm.

Okay, I feel really strange. Like elated/frustrated/confused/weird/let down/sob. And it is not good. But I shall get to that later. Firstly I would like to say SNOW!
Yes, it freaking nowed this fine morrow! Was aweeeeeeesssssssssome I was so happy! Me Rio and Tom, my mini little ginger friend in the year below me, he's quite the legendary fella tbh XD we had a snowball fight, then gave up 'cause it was too cold, decided to make a snowman, then got too cold again, so just ran around like loonies for a bit. Then I made a snow angel on my larry, and Tom gave it a penis. Was so upsetting lol.
Notice how I'm not even talking about school, it's not worth a mention anymore!
So, moving onto my state of I-have-no-idea-what-the-fuck-is-up-with-my-brain: I was on msn tonight after a Rwanda meeting, and I was feeling bummed 'cause its getting nearer to Valentine's Day and I'm the sad girl who cries, you all know her, its the one you laugh at whilst you're off with your hot dates on hot dates :( Also the snow was so romantic, and made me miss my last relationship and I just miss that feeling :( Anyway, Simon came online, and i told him how I felt, like I always do... and it was a weird convo... I'm tempted to just post it... in fact I will. Make of it what you will. Though I find it embarrassing as I have tried not to be admitting these feeling to myself 'cause I don't want them to be there, or be real 'cause they suck and I just hate it :( GO:

Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
hey
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
hey
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
u ok?
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
i guess
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
you?
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
ill
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
u wanna talk about it hun?
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
why not
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
i'm just sick of it really...
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
and i'm tired of not having anyone
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
and then i try not to care and be all "i'm an independent single woman and its fine"
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
which is just plain lying
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i know the feeling (not being a woman) being lonely n sick of it
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:

Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i'm sorry hun
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i rly am
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
x
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
*huggss cos i luv u*
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
*n will do no matter what*
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
yeah but you have to say that
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
doesn't include meaning it though
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
but there's a difference
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i do mean it
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
x
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
no you don't
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
you have to say it cause i feel crappy
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i do!!!!
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
sarah,
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
and just happen to be moaning on you
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i love you
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
actually enough to mean in more than just a friendship way
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
if u died i would follow
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i love you
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
stop it
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
its shit simon
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
what?
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:

Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:

Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i mean it
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
that's why i'm tyrnna press it
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
u hav no frikin idea how much i love you
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
thats bollocks
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
and whats worse is you fucking knkow it!
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
the other night sarah,
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
u know i was like
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
trynna say somethin
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
but then i stopped myself
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
...?
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
do u remember that?
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
whan?
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
what?
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
the other nitw
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i sed ive got somethin to tell u
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
n then i jst sed nvm
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
??
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
oh... okay
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
what, was it
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i was a lil confused
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
but honestly
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i was thinkin bout askin you out
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
what?!
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
okay this is starting to cheer me up...
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
but, as you said, you were a little confused
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
yeah cos,
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
some1 else kinda told me they like me n stuff
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
n it was gettin confusin
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
but the thing is
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i love you
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
and
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
maybe
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
tessa w
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:

Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
sorry
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
but i do love you
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i mean it
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
okay, now i'm confused
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
whats going on?
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i'm trynna work out where i am
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
n hoo i love more
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
u or tessa
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:

-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
what happened to bex?
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
nt happenin
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
won't happen
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
still, you can't move on from someone that quickly
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
it just doesn't work that way
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i know
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
like i sed
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i'm trynna think things through
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
so what you're feeling about either me or tessa is probably just like side effects of that
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
noooooo
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
no
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
:?
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i hope nt
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
doubt it
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:

-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
what?!
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
simon, you were properly head over heels in love with her, last time i checked
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
yeah
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
that was like 2 weeks ago
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
maybe more
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
2 weeks hun, is not a long time
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
and, from experience, its just not enough time to get over someone in
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
well then
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
give me time
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
sadly
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
lemme see how much i rly love u
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
cos i do
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
atleast a measurable amount!
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
x
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
for how long though...?
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
2 more weeks
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
:?
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
*
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i dunno
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
whatever's natural
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
no, like how long have you "loved" me
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
which i still think is bullshit, but whatever
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
like
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
half a yr sarah
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
half a year?!?!?!
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
you haven't even known me that long
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
ugh, i feel so drained
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
its your fault
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
sarah
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i've know u for like over 3 yrs now
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
yes, but not properly like, properly properly
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
yeah
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i hav hun!
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
woah...
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
wow...
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
u still don't believe that i love you?
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
Z
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
i dunno... i thought it was just me
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
what u mean?
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
kinda felt the same for a bit
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
maybe not far enough to say love... but getting there
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
shut up sarah
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
u mean u love me or u felt that i loved you?
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
the first one
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
why didn't u tell me?
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
cause it was stupid
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
and its you
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
and no its not stupid, that sounds horrib;e
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
charming.
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
i meant, i thought it would be stupid to say that to you
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
why?
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
cause i thought that you way out of my league
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
and you are
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
wtf?!
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
hell no!!!
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
and i didn't have the confidence, and i'm scared of rejection
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
and i could just see it going wrong
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
like i sed
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i would never reject u
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
yeah you said that yesterday!
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
well
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
i meant it ages ago lol
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:

Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:

Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
x
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
well you never said it wither
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
god we're stupid
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
lol
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
lets leave it at that for now
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
n we'll se how it goes
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:

-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
okay
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:

-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
fuck me a
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
*i'm shaking
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
why?
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
weird
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
i dunno
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
u mean a lot to me
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
don't simon
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
lets just, leave it for now
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
kk
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
x
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
ily
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
nite
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
x
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
are you going?
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
yeah
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
soz
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
oh, okay
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
no worries
-x-Sazz here's the deal guys. i love katy miles to the max. says:
byee xx
Simon FBam BamYes I feel enthatic about not being static and not eating the bxllshxt that's being fed to me! says:
nite x

That's bad right?! Ugh I'm still shaking like 3 hours on, what's up wit me?! Is bad though 'cause at first I was like OMG YAY! Then I was like, Oh, wait a minute, then I was like Oh this sucks. And now I'm angry and both him and myself and Tessa W for being pretty and UGH! I hate the whole situation so much. So Son, you can laugh as much as you want ay my stupidity, I don't even care. And HAPPY SURPRISE to anyone who hadn't guessed/didn't know. Woohoo.
Laterss xx