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Sarah is boreddddddddd :( And needs her ace readers to listen to her whinge :D Gee I love the internet ;)
SO! It's been like a month since I last posted and the post before that was like another month ago... I'm so awful at keeping track of this little blog :S Sorry to anyone who reads my scribbles and is gripping their seat for the next chapter... awh who am I kidding, I'm the only one who reads it when I have nothing better to do and feel like moping over my own misery... BWAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAaaaaaaa I really need a social life :/
Talking of social-ness (word?), I'm having a pretty crap tme. No surprises there. This whole palava's (really wanted to write pavlova there) been playing out for like the past year and I still haven't done anything about it :O It's silly. I need to formulate a plan wherein I ditch my crappy friends who annoy me, ignore me and most likely hate me... I always get the feeling that they're bitching about me when they're together and I'm not. They might not be and I might just be paranoid, or it could be I WANT them to be bitching about me, at least then they'd recognise I was an actual person, maybe it would mean they care...
To be honest with you I'm making this a little exaggerated, it's not so bad now as it used to be... I can sorta talk to them now and if I don't feel like that I'll go and chat to the guys instead. How come guys are always so much more chilled that girls? I never understood that! They can freely laugh about things and girls just moan and bitch! I know that's exactly what I'm doing right this second but it totally doesn't count on this thing!! Meh :/
Also I really think I'm overly sexually frustrated (yes I admit it... but who the hell isn't when they're 16?!). I'm in love with my English teacher, even though he has a wife, is like 20 years older than me and may or may not have a child :S I think I got him confused with another teacher in the school and just made up his imaginary son... I think his name was Fraser lol. I pray that he is imaginary!!!!!!! Adding to his list of bad points he supports Man U (CHEATS!) and makes BAAing noises when reading Ted Hughes. Other than that he's just perfect... he's the nicest man on the planet, he would never put anyone down or make them feel bad about themselves. He's one of those guys who looks like a little lost puppy who would never hurt a fly; the ones you just wanna give a huge hug to. Gorgeous beautiful wondrous man, and I can't have him :( Giant sad face to the maximum level of depression :'( Tears are spilling from my eyes (joke... or je blague in french, which I now say ALL the time so, that's what it means if ever I write it lol). Anyway, the sentiment reamins... I'm in love with Mr Grimmet. And I miss Mr Eastwood and his luxury beautness. Sob.
Sylvia Plath is depressing btw. We're studying her poems with him at the minute and I come out of every lesson like 'what's the point in life?!' It makes me feel physically ill reading it... I might just go pop my head in the oven with the gas turned up high and blow myself to shreds like she did! It's only Monday as well! And I only have 2 frees this week (seeing as they've taken loads away from me... bloody french and critical thinking. Which I don't even wanna do tbh but I have to so I can get an extra qualification and do an extended project (WTF I know!!) next year and get this AQA Baccalaureat thingumabob which apparently looks good on University applications. I've done volunteer work in Africa for pete's sake what more do you want?!) where was I? Free periods... I had five, I now have two... I know someone who has 14! how is that fair?! In what parallel universe does someone get and extra 12 frees when I'm stuck with two: obviously this fucking one!!! Piece of shite >:( Angry Sarah!!!!
Lots of school is making Sarah angry :( I got a D in my Biology test today, but on my last one I got a B, its like ARGH!!! What the hell?! And I did really well in my first English essay and then got C- on the next one!! I'm getting worse, not better... how bad is that?!
I'm losing the will with most things right now. Life is not going too well, though maybe one aspect is improving. Possible boy interest (this one's my own age! SCORE!)... he's called Callum and used to be a bit of a twat, he was in my tutor. But recently we've just been talking loads and we went out to Costa today which was nice... he wants to meet up again soon. That to me is a bloody good sign!! I bet now having said that it'll all go tits up like just about everything else in my life :S
Still, half term in like two weeks :D Going to New York for a couple of days with my famille and Rio, SO excited :D Should be amazing!!!!! And then after that it's Halloween and my parents have decided to be pretty cool (I give them too much trouble, they're pretty cool all the time tbh :D) and are throwing a huge party :D We used to have them every year at Xmas but for the past 4/5 years we've been away so parties have been on the small end of the spectrum which saddens me. Anyway, I wasn't gonna invite any of my "friends" so that my brother's lot could come instead and they're just so amazingly fun and unboring :D I love them :D But, not many people have replied to the email my mum sent round the other week and she's worried no one will turn up. Plus they somehow found out about it (might have accidently let it slip? :S) and are convinced that they're coming. Even though they'd hate it - they're so anti-good times and anti-alcohol they'd just be like 'this party sucks' when it would actually be fabulous and they're just gonna be gay like that... UGH!!! Still, I can't like refuse them now can I? It's just too rude :S
WOW! IT's like 20 to 12! I gotta wake up tomorrow morning :S Better be off :L
One more thing before I leave, in Biology today we had to do posters about cell membranes and shit and movement in and out of them and me and Liv had to do one on active transport... LOL it was hysterical :L It was one of those crappy activities where you're only allowed to use like 10 words and it should all be in pictures... So we demonstrated proteins with little pictures of fish and ATP as Albert the ATP ALien!!!! He was pretty much just a little circular blob with twigs for arms and feet, three eyes (to resemble the phosphates or some shiz like that) and two little blobble antennae things :D AND a huge smily face :D He's like my pride and joy, I love him with all my heart :D I even persuaded Mr Weston to use him to help his youger students understand phosynthesis lol... he won't do it, gay Mr Weston. He looks like a kettle to me lol.
LATE!! Right, byee :P
Laterss xx